Standing The Ground

 Recently these past few days there has been a lot of intake. There has been good but also hardship. As I thought about what my next blog would be. I thought in current status I could relate to the question, " How do I respond the status quo of relationships?" This can be one of the hardest places to stand. From Facebook to our peers we're  challenged in this area of singleness being viewed as a curse or blessing.

I have definitely felt those shoes. As I mentioned my younger sister just got married. And it has been a ride. I have felt the struggle how to respond when people have good intentions to words that are look at as casual conversations. It has definitely been shoes to walk in.  I even thought about enlisting some of things I've heard but I didn't feel that it was right. That has definitely been the area where I have had to learn that sometimes silence is better.

  At the same time one of the hardest things for me to face has not just been words but the wedding pictures that we're took.  I found it super hard to form a smile. And I felt like, " Why couldn't I compose myself?" Have you been there? I share that because when it comes to our status quo it can feel like we have to compose ourselves to what the world wants.

It is not easy my friend so as I write this I want you to know  the only way I have learn to respond is through pushing myself  to look at the " Little Victories in how God's moving." and when my emotions stir me up let them be what they are because God has given them to us. Still super hard for me to find balance in that too but  I thought that I could  leave us with:

Psalm 139 ( A classic but  it's God  who holds our status which is timeless)

Still learning to walk this Ladies but  may God use our stories!

Intro To Life From A Single

First of all  I just want to say welcome! I have been wanting to start a new blog up for a  couple of days. I had previously been writing with His Bride On Mission which was my first blog but one thing I am learning is to use the platform that God has given me. My desire is that it will touch single women along with letting us be real with one another. This has also been a space that the Father's let me speak from. I am passionate about being authentic with others because I have been in constant learning that we all want to be heard. I also know that the condition of the heart can be overwhelming and sometimes we may feel like we're wearing our emotions on our sleeve.
I also just want  to take time to answer some questions that I have been asking myself and perhaps others have too such as,

"Is it normal for single women to still have desires and is there such thing as perfect contentment?"; which is the one I will talk about in this one. From a personal perspective I want to say I don't know that there is always perfect contentment. I share this one because even though I am single I still have moments where I long for that guy to pursue me. This one especially because I have a younger sister who is getting married. I also know because I have done this one myself that it easy to play off ignoring our desires that I must be  a perfectionist in my contentment. However, what I have been learning is that Christ hasn't called us to performance but to just do life knowing that He just loves us for who we are. However, it doesn't excuse us from growing to know Him and  " Do the next right thing" which is what a friend of mine shared with me.

So, for me I feel like this is one of my many steps in my season of , " Doing the next right thing." I also know what it's like to be the one, " Does any one else think this way or am I just crazy?." So when I tell you these things I pray it will connect in such a way God uses it. I also just want to express as a single person that God gives us these desires for a reason. I don't always understand why because as I shared already that I don't know that there is perfect contentment and by that I  mean I don't know it's always mastered. At least I know it's not for me. I still have my days because like I shared with you my younger sister is getting married and it has brought many emotions.

 I mean I have been that one who has struggled with comparison because in the worlds eyes her getting married would feel like the grown up thing to do. And I'm 23 thinking, " Why her first?" Especially because she's also moving out. It's hard I'm telling you because I never pictured life going that way. This has also made me feel like I'm still little or that I'm dependent when in my life I long for Independence. And by no means do I mean in rebellion but I want to be married like I said. I want to explore new things but in my current life I am having to learn to be present in the season that I'm in.

So, I will tell you contentment is deeper then we realize. It's not that God expects perfection but I believe part of contentment is learning to come to His feet. I don't  have that mastered by any means because like I shared I have a habit of living in my mind. And that usually leads to wearing my emotions on my selves. This doesn't mean emotions are bad but it's being able to get it laid out there which is also one of my many reasons in writing because I know that our emotions  can trap us and I'm currently learning what this all means.
Therefore I invite you to share life and perhaps be willing to get into the messy stuff because I'm learning that the messy stuff shapes us.