The War Is On

As women today I think it can be hard because it seems like there are so many views of an idea woman! And I think it can be challenging.  So, often I tend to hide behind my eyes instead of Christ eyes!  I tend to dance more in bondage instead of freedom but this isn't what I want or desire. Can any of your relate ? For me my bondage is being enough or knowing I am  exactly who Christ designed me to be !  And because of this chain I tend to sway in it comparing or feeling  that I am the black sheep.  I mean I am fixing to turn 25 and that my friends already feels awkward.

 And while I know in my life there are blessings. I also know that I  struggle with  trusting God's perfect plan! I get so caught up in my plans  or thinking I am way off scale because I notice the things people are doing my age. And it makes me wonder do I keep my desires  of a family one day,will I ever be settled or maybe I should just be present and surrender taking each season as it comes ?  

However you want to look at it I say this  to be real and maybe even encourage others who have this same struggle that it is soo hard!  We are constantly bombarded with we should be but  the real truth is we need God's affirmation!

We need to take hold of whose we are!

And I am saying all this because I am in the fight with you all. To be quiet honest on this note as I speak I want to say  that I think from this whole collection of thoughts as well as conversations I've had down the road that  maybe the reality is  there are always going to be things we desire or places we should be  but  the reality is  that  we just need to accept where we are knowing God is good!

 I am not saying we all feel this way or  any one will agree with me but I  just know  am sick of this battle and maybe you are too ! So, that is why I also write. I want to see others as well as myself step up to the plate owning who they are!  And if I could sit with each one of you I would tell you ladies we can't take this  hit like it's nothing ! We were given the sword and God wants us to wield it !

We hold this sword everyday and this my friends is His word ! So , maybe today you need to hold up the sword and say to Satan, I am His child!

I don't know  but I just want to  say Ladies, " The War is On!, Will you fight?"   At the same time I want to close challenging us all to claim Psalm 139 because we are FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE" So, ladies will you join me ?

Standing The Ground

 Recently these past few days there has been a lot of intake. There has been good but also hardship. As I thought about what my next blog would be. I thought in current status I could relate to the question, " How do I respond the status quo of relationships?" This can be one of the hardest places to stand. From Facebook to our peers we're  challenged in this area of singleness being viewed as a curse or blessing.

I have definitely felt those shoes. As I mentioned my younger sister just got married. And it has been a ride. I have felt the struggle how to respond when people have good intentions to words that are look at as casual conversations. It has definitely been shoes to walk in.  I even thought about enlisting some of things I've heard but I didn't feel that it was right. That has definitely been the area where I have had to learn that sometimes silence is better.

  At the same time one of the hardest things for me to face has not just been words but the wedding pictures that we're took.  I found it super hard to form a smile. And I felt like, " Why couldn't I compose myself?" Have you been there? I share that because when it comes to our status quo it can feel like we have to compose ourselves to what the world wants.

It is not easy my friend so as I write this I want you to know  the only way I have learn to respond is through pushing myself  to look at the " Little Victories in how God's moving." and when my emotions stir me up let them be what they are because God has given them to us. Still super hard for me to find balance in that too but  I thought that I could  leave us with:

Psalm 139 ( A classic but  it's God  who holds our status which is timeless)

Still learning to walk this Ladies but  may God use our stories!

Intro To Life From A Single

First of all  I just want to say welcome! I have been wanting to start a new blog up for a  couple of days. I had previously been writing with His Bride On Mission which was my first blog but one thing I am learning is to use the platform that God has given me. My desire is that it will touch single women along with letting us be real with one another. This has also been a space that the Father's let me speak from. I am passionate about being authentic with others because I have been in constant learning that we all want to be heard. I also know that the condition of the heart can be overwhelming and sometimes we may feel like we're wearing our emotions on our sleeve.
I also just want  to take time to answer some questions that I have been asking myself and perhaps others have too such as,

"Is it normal for single women to still have desires and is there such thing as perfect contentment?"; which is the one I will talk about in this one. From a personal perspective I want to say I don't know that there is always perfect contentment. I share this one because even though I am single I still have moments where I long for that guy to pursue me. This one especially because I have a younger sister who is getting married. I also know because I have done this one myself that it easy to play off ignoring our desires that I must be  a perfectionist in my contentment. However, what I have been learning is that Christ hasn't called us to performance but to just do life knowing that He just loves us for who we are. However, it doesn't excuse us from growing to know Him and  " Do the next right thing" which is what a friend of mine shared with me.

So, for me I feel like this is one of my many steps in my season of , " Doing the next right thing." I also know what it's like to be the one, " Does any one else think this way or am I just crazy?." So when I tell you these things I pray it will connect in such a way God uses it. I also just want to express as a single person that God gives us these desires for a reason. I don't always understand why because as I shared already that I don't know that there is perfect contentment and by that I  mean I don't know it's always mastered. At least I know it's not for me. I still have my days because like I shared with you my younger sister is getting married and it has brought many emotions.

 I mean I have been that one who has struggled with comparison because in the worlds eyes her getting married would feel like the grown up thing to do. And I'm 23 thinking, " Why her first?" Especially because she's also moving out. It's hard I'm telling you because I never pictured life going that way. This has also made me feel like I'm still little or that I'm dependent when in my life I long for Independence. And by no means do I mean in rebellion but I want to be married like I said. I want to explore new things but in my current life I am having to learn to be present in the season that I'm in.

So, I will tell you contentment is deeper then we realize. It's not that God expects perfection but I believe part of contentment is learning to come to His feet. I don't  have that mastered by any means because like I shared I have a habit of living in my mind. And that usually leads to wearing my emotions on my selves. This doesn't mean emotions are bad but it's being able to get it laid out there which is also one of my many reasons in writing because I know that our emotions  can trap us and I'm currently learning what this all means.
Therefore I invite you to share life and perhaps be willing to get into the messy stuff because I'm learning that the messy stuff shapes us.